Right. So i've succumbed to pressure and logged onto my FB account. So i've no fuckin' idea what's so addictive about it. Just posted a 'What am i thinking right now' and that's it. What else is there to do? Do not conprehend how people spend hours and hours over facebook. Prolly the extra applications. Which i'm not interested in. Anyway i'm so fuckin' bored right now that's why i'm actually blogging. Else you'd have more luck finding me on facebook than here.
Signing off :)
<3 marcus
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Boy meets boy. Told me he was messed up and needs to sort himself out. Rejected. Is it real? or more likely, an excuse? I've been told to wait, but i've a feeling i'd be waiting for nothing. Nevertheless, i'll be waiting. It's only 2 more months and i'd be back in Melbourne. It has never gonna be possible anyway. Who am i kidding? Myself? To expect someone to wait 8 months for me? I must be joking right..? I can't fathom why am i even contemplating it. It's ridiculous. Furthermore we are so different. Totally different. Different background different aims. I am going on a wild dragon chase. Heartbreak. Gonna start preparing myself for the inevitable misery. Coming soon.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Back from Fab Sun. Haha. Got to know Clarence's friends better. I hope. Well not really better better but just hung out more. Danced together. Talked more. Though nothing of importance. I think i might come across as unable to hold a conversation. I dunno. My sentences are pretty broken lol.
I. Need. Some. Intimacy.
It's been so long. I wanna feel wanted. Desirable. Though I'm not one who doesn't know my limits. Both upper and lower. I need someone to 'Touch my pareh'. Dying need for it. I don't really care for any long term or short term. Come what may. But i just don't like the idea of hooking up in some spa. Eew. Well though I keep saying I wanna go, but it's just a joke. A JOKE YOU READ!? Went once and felt totally weirded out about myself after. Just felt...unclean. Ack. That's me. Fussy. Ignore me.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Omg omg. I keep wanting to blog but i can never sit down to do it. Not that i hate writing. I love writing. It's up there together with eating and gaming as my favourite things in life. Writing. Never did realise that i've a flair for writing. Turn intangible thoughts into tangible words. Used to hate writing with a vengeance. After that fiasco known as A levels. Terrible. Useless bums teaching GP. Like they expect you to sit there without any knowledge of writing a proper essay and actually write that essay out. Miracle of miracles, i managed to fumble through them. But that experience left a bitter taste in my mouth. Not until i came to Australia did i get taught how to write an essay properly. Since then, writing essays just came to me naturally. And i thought i was a science student. *roll eyes* Anyway, i don't see how people could actually sit down and blog religiously everyday. I can't even be bothered to spend 5 mins out of my unproductive life to write an entry. Really admire those people. Time for me to go to bed. Hopefully i can wake up early to continue mugging for exams. And no WoW.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Discipline. Or the lack of it. Is. My. Biggest. Problem. Sometimes i just hate how ill-disciplined i am. One moment i tell myself i wanna do this and do that, the next moment i find myself sitting in front of my laptop, hitting the keys for 'starfire' on a monster. How terrible it is. If only i can be half-disciplined as i am in playing WoW, i'd be in SG now finishing 3rd yr Uni. But NO! I'm determined to while my time(life) away playing games and not studying and doing anything productive, other than lining Blizzard's pockets.
Just whining. Hope i'll be more consistent in blogging.
Right. So i've succumbed to pressure and logged onto my FB account. So i've no fuckin' idea what's so addictive about it. Just posted a 'What am i thinking right now' and that's it. What else is there to do? Do not conprehend how people spend hours and hours over facebook. Prolly the extra applications. Which i'm not interested in. Anyway i'm so fuckin' bored right now that's why i'm actually blogging. Else you'd have more luck finding me on facebook than here.
Signing off :)
<3 marcus
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Boy meets boy. Told me he was messed up and needs to sort himself out. Rejected. Is it real? or more likely, an excuse? I've been told to wait, but i've a feeling i'd be waiting for nothing. Nevertheless, i'll be waiting. It's only 2 more months and i'd be back in Melbourne. It has never gonna be possible anyway. Who am i kidding? Myself? To expect someone to wait 8 months for me? I must be joking right..? I can't fathom why am i even contemplating it. It's ridiculous. Furthermore we are so different. Totally different. Different background different aims. I am going on a wild dragon chase. Heartbreak. Gonna start preparing myself for the inevitable misery. Coming soon.
Monday, December 15, 2008
Back from Fab Sun. Haha. Got to know Clarence's friends better. I hope. Well not really better better but just hung out more. Danced together. Talked more. Though nothing of importance. I think i might come across as unable to hold a conversation. I dunno. My sentences are pretty broken lol.
I. Need. Some. Intimacy.
It's been so long. I wanna feel wanted. Desirable. Though I'm not one who doesn't know my limits. Both upper and lower. I need someone to 'Touch my pareh'. Dying need for it. I don't really care for any long term or short term. Come what may. But i just don't like the idea of hooking up in some spa. Eew. Well though I keep saying I wanna go, but it's just a joke. A JOKE YOU READ!? Went once and felt totally weirded out about myself after. Just felt...unclean. Ack. That's me. Fussy. Ignore me.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Omg omg. I keep wanting to blog but i can never sit down to do it. Not that i hate writing. I love writing. It's up there together with eating and gaming as my favourite things in life. Writing. Never did realise that i've a flair for writing. Turn intangible thoughts into tangible words. Used to hate writing with a vengeance. After that fiasco known as A levels. Terrible. Useless bums teaching GP. Like they expect you to sit there without any knowledge of writing a proper essay and actually write that essay out. Miracle of miracles, i managed to fumble through them. But that experience left a bitter taste in my mouth. Not until i came to Australia did i get taught how to write an essay properly. Since then, writing essays just came to me naturally. And i thought i was a science student. *roll eyes* Anyway, i don't see how people could actually sit down and blog religiously everyday. I can't even be bothered to spend 5 mins out of my unproductive life to write an entry. Really admire those people. Time for me to go to bed. Hopefully i can wake up early to continue mugging for exams. And no WoW.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Discipline. Or the lack of it. Is. My. Biggest. Problem. Sometimes i just hate how ill-disciplined i am. One moment i tell myself i wanna do this and do that, the next moment i find myself sitting in front of my laptop, hitting the keys for 'starfire' on a monster. How terrible it is. If only i can be half-disciplined as i am in playing WoW, i'd be in SG now finishing 3rd yr Uni. But NO! I'm determined to while my time(life) away playing games and not studying and doing anything productive, other than lining Blizzard's pockets.
Just whining. Hope i'll be more consistent in blogging.