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Thursday, November 30, 2006

I'm feeling terrible. Feel-good factor from 14hrs of sleep worn off. I just feel like cocooning up again, safe in my own world, away from the sad realities of life. It's freaking uncomfortable for me to meet new people, to hangout with them, when there's always a spectre of rejection hanging over my head. I hate being rejected, and i'm always getting rejected so much so that i'm always expecting myself to be rejected. I have a problem with socialising i guess. Somehow i never fit into any group. I'll always end up seeing things in a way different from the general population. I just don't feel like meeting anyone anymore. Just hide away from reality. I never feel welcomed anywhere. It's always me in a different dimension from the other. I WANT TO FIT IN, BUT I'M ALWAYS STANDING OUT! I just wanna die and end all these misery lol.

5:04 AM

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